Friday, March 8, 2013

Impromptu Post: HAPPY INTERNATIONAL WOMEN'S DAY!!!!

Right. So, in order to celebrate, I have memorized a spoken word poem titled "Pretty" by Katie Makkai that I have come to love. This post is going to be really short and here's what's going to be in it:
1) Transcript of the poem followed by the link I found it at
2) Link to the YouTube video where I first heard this poem and fell in love with it
Have a great International Women's Day!
Cheers!

"Pretty" by Katie Makkai

When I was just a little girl, I asked my mother, “What will I be? Will I be pretty? Will I be pretty? Will I be pretty? What comes next? Oh right, will I be rich?” Which is almost pretty depending on where you shop. And the pretty question infects from conception, passing blood and breath into cells. The word hangs from our mothers' hearts in a shrill fluorescent floodlight of worry.

“Will I be wanted? Worthy? Pretty?” But puberty left me this funhouse mirror dryad: teeth set at science fiction angles, crooked nose, face donkey-long and pox-marked where the hormones went finger-painting. My poor mother. 

“How could this happen? You'll have porcelain skin as soon as we can see a dermatologist. You sucked your thumb. That's why your teeth look like that! You were hit in the face with a Frisbee when you were 6. Otherwise your nose would have been just fine!

“Don't worry. We'll get it fixed!” She would say, grasping my face, twisting it this way and that, as if it were a cabbage she might buy. 

But this is not about her. Not her fault. She, too, was raised to believe the greatest asset she could bestow upon her awkward little girl was a marketable facade. By 16, I was pickled with ointments, medications, peroxides. Teeth corralled into steel prongs. Laying in a hospital bed, face packed with gauze, cushioning the brand new nose the surgeon had carved.

Belly gorged on 2 pints of my blood I had swallowed under anesthesia, and every convulsive twist of my gut like my body screaming at me from the inside out, “What did you let them do to you!”

All the while this never-ending chorus droning on and on, like the IV needle dripping liquid beauty into my blood. “Will I be pretty? Will I be pretty? Like my mother, unwrapping the gift wrap to reveal the bouquet of daughter her $10,000 bought her? Pretty? Pretty.”

And now, I have not seen my own face for 10 years. I have not seen my own face in 10 years, but this is not about me. 

This is about the self-mutilating circus we have painted ourselves clowns in. About women who will prowl 30 stores in 6 malls to find the right cocktail dress, but haven't a clue where to find fulfillment or how wear joy, wandering through life shackled to a shopping bag, beneath those 2 pretty syllables.

About men wallowing on bar stools, drearily practicing attraction and everyone who will drift home tonight, crest-fallen because not enough strangers found you suitably fuckable. 

This, this is about my own some-day daughter. When you approach me, already stung-stayed with insecurity, begging, “Mom, will I be pretty? Will I be pretty?” I will wipe that question from your mouth like cheap lipstick and answer, “No! The word pretty is unworthy of everything you will be, and no child of mine will be contained in five letters.

“You will be pretty intelligent, pretty creative, pretty amazing. But you, will never be merely 'pretty'.”
(http://dianasmanylifetimes.blogspot.com/2010/11/katie-makkai-pretty.html)

And the YouTube video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M6wJl37N9C0

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Thursday, March 7, 2013

New England Horror Story

Hello!
This is my attempt at a short horror story. I'm not as good at prose as I'd like to be but practice makes perfect. Enjoy, critique, and read while listening to scary music in the background. That might help with the ambiance. Thanks!


                A blood moon was lying just above the silhouetted tree line, dangerously red against the indigo sky, scanning the New England Coast with disinterest.  A slight south-eastern breeze blew warm and wet across the hills and in between the quiet forests and valleys.  Late June had transformed the area into a lush landscape full of life and wonder and secrets. 
This very night the forest was moving.  The moon had called out all the monsters and the haunts and the specters.  Big hairy beasts appeared from the air, wavering and shifting and then taking definite form before tromping out around the forest floors.  Unearthly lights faded and glided in a choreographed ballet, burning red and yellow and green and blue.  Moans and sighs ran from the lips of the trees.  Leaves rustled against the wind.  Twigs snapped.  Faces materialized.
The hills and mountains came alive with supernatural activity but the blood moon turned away.  Instead, it fixed its gaze upon a handful of small creatures in a clearing. A small fire was burning and four young students were camping out, enjoying a summer road trip.  They had stolen beers from home and cracked them open, throwing the empty bottles on the ground and reaching for more.  Drunk, they tried to tell horror stories but couldn’t keep straight faces.  They couldn’t even see each other.  The tent lay in its package in the back of the truck.  All that really mattered was where the beer cooler was and how hot Sophia and Jessica were.
Owen was the first to notice the blood moon.  He tore his eyes away from the mesmerizing flames to look at the sky.  It was really dark.  He couldn’t really see anything.  The moon had a red tint.  That was weird.  He was definitely hallucinating.  What was in his drink?  He took another sip and stared at the flames and Jessica on the other side of them.
Andrew was blacking out already.  He had been going heavy since they pulled up to their camping spot that evening.  There was no doubt that he would forget everything come morning except that he’d had too much, for which the legendary hangover he would have constantly reminding him until late in the afternoon.  Andrew was the first to hear the noises.  He flicked his head in the general direction of the whispers but didn’t pay too much attention because they weren’t nearly important as the front flip he was going to do to impress Sophia.
Jessica and Sophia were too busily giggling at the boys’ antics to see the bushes that were moving even when there wasn’t wind.  Sophia laughed and clapped gleefully when Andrew fell on his face.  Jessica batted her eyes in what she thought was a seductive manner as Owen undressed her with his eyes.  The whispers grew louder.  The bushes rustled more vigorously.  The blood moon watched on in interest.  There was no time left for them.
As time passed, Owen began to recognize the movement behind Jessica as unnatural.  He raised his eyes and was about to say something to Jessica when she suddenly shot up and screamed.  Owen’s head was ripped off in the jaws of a shaggy gray monster, eight feet tall with a gaping mouth from which dangled Owen from the neck up.  His lifeless body froze in its spot on the log before toppling over into a pool of its own blood.
Jessica and Sophia shrieked and Andrew stared in sheer horror at the monster and its devastation. The girls took off in the direction of the truck, grabbing at each other and scrabbling for the keys, wrenching their necks around in sharp jerks.  The monster had followed them and was quickly gaining speed.  Jessica screamed as, for the second time tonight, she watched a close friend mutilated.  Sophia was torn from her grasp, shrieking and writhing.  The monster had her bottom half in his sharp-toothed mouth when dozens of orbs of light began tugging at her arms and torso and hair.  Sophia was still alive and screaming in terror and pain.  Tears ran freely from her shocked eyes and then she was ripped in half, vertebrae and intestines raining around Jessica.
Jessica was crying hysterically as she pulled herself away from the graphic scene and sprinted to the truck.  She yanked the door open and fumbled as she shoved the keys into the ignition.  Miraculously, it started the first time.  Jessica gunned the gas before she remembered to put the truck in drive.  With a great lurch forward, she hurtled the truck blindly toward where she thought the road was.  The sound of powerful wings beating at the air caused her to look up, an action she immediately regretted.
What looked like a dead, half-rotten vulture with leathery wings was bearing down upon the truck from behind.  Jessica sobbed hopelessly as she veered around trees and caught air from unexpected bumps and branches.  The sound of talons on metal added to the hysteria.  Talon marks on the roof of the truck were drawn, stopped, and then the beast landed on the hood and stared her down through the windshield.  It opened its ugly beak and screeched, its tongue flapping ungraciously.  A crack appeared in the windshield, which it seemed to study before screeching again.
Jessica was pushing the truck far past its capacity, going 80 amidst the trees and faster when she thought she saw a break.  She thought that she could see the road just ahead and floored it.  She was going upwards of 110 mph when she hit the tree.  The airbag exploded from the windshield.  The entire front end of the car was compacted to less than half of its original size.  Some of the engine had been pushed so far back, parts had penetrated the dash and, by extension, Jessica’s stomach.  Amazingly, she was still conscious; she was conscious enough to see the vulture-thing hop towards her and lower its head.  It looked at her for a few moments before leaning in to rip off some flesh from her arm.  Jessica could only whimper.  Her head was tilted unnaturally and she was bleeding out from her stomach, but she felt it as the beast slowly ate its way up her arm and to her face.  She finally blacked out just before she saw it stare her right in the eyes and lean its cruel beak forward.
Andrew heard Sophia’s body ripped in half and the huge, squealing crash that was Jessica’s demise shortly after.  He hadn’t moved an inch since Owen’s head had been unceremoniously removed and eaten.  The adrenaline pumping through his body had sobered him up fast.  His eyes were wide and empty as the blood moon fairly glowed with satisfaction at the night’s entertainment.  The monster that had been picking its teeth clean with a splintered bone from Sophia’s shin now turned to him.  It glared for a moment before surging forward, mouth gaping, claws extended, hair thrown back.
Andrew couldn’t move as it moved closer.  His feet were rooted.  Only his head rotated up as the towering monster soared closer.  It stopped inches in front of him and roared in his face.  Andrew closed his eyes against the reek of blood and flesh which he knew used to belong to his friend.  Then it closed its mouth, hiding its many teeth and it began to pace around him, sniffing him, nudging him with its nose and claws, tugging agonizingly at Andrew’s clothes.  But through all this, Andrew couldn’t move.
The blood moon watched and knew that this would be the one.  This human that wouldn’t move would make it through the night.  Just luck that the one night the blood moon called out the haunts and spooks, they would meet one of them.  They had the blood of a warlock and the spirit of a shaman.  They were rarer than the ghosts the moon played with.  The blood moon shone even more brightly as it looked down with increased interest.
Andrew didn’t know what the moon knew.  All he knew is that he was scared.  He closed his eyes so tightly he began to see lights.  Finally, his hind brain kicked in and he threw back his head and howled a single, lingering shriek of terror and desperation.  Then he collapsed, unconscious.
A faint light shone around Andrew’s crumpled body before it gathered and emerged as a vaguely humanoid form.  The pacing monster now stumbled away from the newcomer, but it wasn’t fast enough.  The being lifted its arm and the monster was thrown against a tree.  The monster scrabbled around for its feet before making a hasty retreat into the forest.  The newcomer threw his arms out and back in a smooth, sweeping motion and the forest erupted.  Sounds of heavy beasts hitting trees and each other and loud snaps as they disappeared into rippling air echoed from every direction.  Wisps and specters hissed into non-existence.  Leaves and trees shuddered visibly and roots twisted uncomfortably in the presence of such raw power.
The being remained motionless, arms out in a T, palms facing out, until the final hisses and snaps and rustles disappeared.  The blood moon watched on in amazement.  Awe turned to panic and fear as the powerful figure then turned and tipped its face up to the sky.  The blood moon could sense its unseeing gaze.  A single palm extended towards the moon and, with extraordinary power, began to drain its light.  The blood moon fought and resisted, but it could feel its strength waning.  Slowly, very slowly, the moon was darkening and the being grew brighter and brighter, so bright that it would blind the naked eye.  In a matter of minutes, the moon was gone and the forest was lit by the unearthly light, with a red tint, from the unremarkable campsite in the woods.
The light-being lowered its palm and stood motionless for hours.  Nothing moved in the forest that night.  Nothing moved in the valley, in the hills, in the sky, in the lakes, or in the ocean.  The blood moon was gone, eradicated by the being that lurked inside the unconscious boy.  Just a few minutes before sunrise, as the sky was getting lighter, the being turned and dimmed its radiance.  It walked back over to Andrew and sank inside of him.  The forest breathed again.
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